Saturday, April 18, 2009

Involuntary segregation

Was on the way home the other day and bumped into Meiping and her special friend. Special friend asked if I was from poly or JC. Being inquisitive about the impression I gave them, I probe them to make a guess from which education institute I was from. Meiping deduced that I was from JC and she quoted that I said “those poly” prior to the question.

At that instance, I was impressed by the attention she gave to details. On hindsight, why did I differentiate myself from “those poly”? Did the process of having gone through JC system give me a sense of dominance over my poly peers that I was not fully aware of? Superiority? Not possible.

The act of acknowledging oneself to be part of something may bring emotional comfort; it’s called sense of belonging. I might have spoken in that matter due to this comfort I receive from knowing that I fit in some place. However, this presents an absurdity. By segregating, sense of belonging is gained and comfort received but won’t it be more comforting to know that I am a “right fit” everywhere – in this instance, both poly and JC.

I think I prefer the comfort acquired from being accepted by all communities over sense of belonging. What is it to me that I belong to God and Him only. Is this comfort less than belonging to my family, friends, community, country, culture, race... This is too much to think about during the exams.

On the side note, I need to phrase my words carefully so that my questions do not fall flat to those who are cognitively inclined to details.

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